so its tuesday. back to work. court date. carlos' bday. and just another day.

I feel like i'm losing my friend stupid bitch! i hate her. carlos can do better. it makes me sad. Lately, i've just been in kind of a "downer" mode. My honey sprung some news on me about what he'd "like to do" and stuff like that. I guess its just hard b/c after 11 months... *yes its been 11 months* I just barely started slowly getting adjusted to how things are, and our schedules. And now, I just know this will be another obstacle that we will some how overcome. Just brings me down a little. Dont get me wrong, I will support him 100%! I love the man, I would never step in his way and I will back him up and be there for him. Just a little down thats all. Too much too handle all at once.

Then my other guy-- Carlos. Carlos is like my bro. We're been best buds for so long. He's been there for me and vice versa. now... this dumb girl... SHE'S A GIRL NOT A WOMAN... is pulling him away. And since this is suppose to be the person he's planning on marrying-- he's going with her. She's very rude!!! I was not once rude to her. I tried so so hard to make conversation with her. And patience with someon who is rude... thats something I dont have!!! And everyone knows that. But I tried. And its just hard.

Today-- court lasted about 7 1/2 hrs!!! i was hella late to work, and things just are bringing me down slowly. Dont know what it is. But I do know I'm going to go work out tomorrow, and I'm going to work on getting my "bod" back.