Sometimes the people that you think have "died" or disappeared from the face of the earth... are the ones that will surprise you when you least expect it.
Thursday night... after I finished updating here, I logged onto myspace to check my messages. To my surprise... my FIRST LOVE. ... he had sent me a message.
I was in tears, my heart was in my throat... and I was left speechless. He and I had dated for about 3 years. His name is James Jimenez. I dated him from the 7th grade till my freshman year in high school. When we broke up... it was hard. I pretended for 6 yrs that it never happened, that he never existed, that he had jus erased hisself from my life.
Well... Myspace has a weird way of connecting people. he popped up out of no where like a ghost... He says hi, he hopes for a friendship, his grandmother misses me, he's an MP in the Army now, his cousin is a Marine, He's single... and well... just a lot of catching up to do. Weird.
No, I have no feelings for him... but it shocked me to get an email from him. The internet works in some weird ways. Wow. I can't say much more on that. Just "wow". The person who was the love of my life... the life that we lived as Romeo n Juliet. I was the cheerleader n he was the football player. We were cutest couple 2 yrs in a row. ... he was my love at first site. Its just so weird. Like a dream or something. I started getting all of these flashbacks. lol. Man, some good memories.

I hold no grudges... I forgave him along time ago for all of the stuff we went through because of his mistakes. His grandmother however... still refers to me as the "angel" who he let go of. I think its sweet. She was always so nice to me. Wow. He said "thanks for everything"... man... its just all too weird. lol. Funny, I told Nat about it when I got the message from him. She was "omg... are you ok?" lol. She's the only one that actually knew the history b/w us... b/c in high school... I never really mentioned him too much b/c of the heartbreak. Just a part of my life I wanted to erase. But nat knew... and man... she had the same reaction I had. lol.

Funny.... Sometimes... life has its turns. He asked for forgiveness... and for a friendship. I see no harm in it. Keeping in touch with old "peeps" is kind of cool. I told my honey about it.... he didnt seem bothered. And honestly, he doesnt have a reason to be. James... yes he meant alo back then... but now... its nothing. Just a ghost from the past. He knows about Fernando, and doesnt want to intrude, he just wants a friend. As long as he doesnt go "psycho-in-love" like the other exes... I dont see a reason as to why not.

Wow, this year has had some surprises for me! lol. really pleasant ones... none really too "bad"